Out the Door

Somewhere outside right beyond the door
They seem to think a monsters there
They all run scared to tiny to care
They are all running so unaware
That this life they cannot fair
Only shadows lurk outside the door
All you fears cannot stand anymore
Scared of what lurks around ever corner
Scared of ever shadow in form of a horror

Walk right out that door
Show your fears they are no more
Concur them in ever way
Let them know they aren't here to stay
Tel them to rush away
And to not come back at the end of the day

So my friends dont care about me
They all just trample over me
Trying to get to the other side
Why oh why cant I just hide.
Hide from the lies in the form of a girl
The kind of girl that can make your head whirl
And the kind of girl who makes your mind swirl

Walk right out that door
Show your fears they are no more
Concur them in ever way
Let them know they aren't here to stay
Tel them to rush away
And to not come back at the end of the day

So truth be told
I fear getting old
I fear growing up
Now isn’t that fucked up
So with this girl
Who is my world
I can try and hide
But I did and died.

ONE YEAR

As the hands move closer to midnight

I just cant but seem to fight

The idea thats its one year tomorrow

People will never know how we feel

Why can’t I see an end?

For this past year ive cried

When asked how I was, I lied

I said I was getting better

But my face was only getting wetter

Alone in my mind without a sound

As the hands move closer to midnight

I just cant but seem to fight

The idea thats its one year tomorrow

People will never know how we feel

Why can’t I see an end?

So here I am with only two to go

The hour hand gets closer and closer

Midnight is almost here

This is just so unclear

How this could go by so fast, one year.

As the hands move closer to midnight

I just cant but seem to fight

The idea thats its one year tomorrow

People will never know how we feel

Why can’t I see an end?

Judge me

domestic disputes erupt over me

fights between friends you and me

i am the overseeing rule of highschool

sorry i dont mean to be cruel

but we all arnt the same

you arnt me and im not you

thats what keeps us different right

wrong i judge you, you judge me

thats the way itll always be

so this thing called judgement

my polo shoes make u think im rich

my macbook make you think im artsy

i drink so do u, whats wrong

judging me got you thinking im not me

so what if i wear fansy designer clothes

pas you on the street with your designer drinks

starbucks, rockstar, redbull, that what it is

were all so different you judge me cuz im weird

so what if its me and my friends

yeah we get kicked out of walmart

like you didnt do stupid shit when you were young

so this thing called judgement

my hoodie make you think i skate

my clothes make you think im emo

i dont smoke but you think i do

judging me got you thinking im not me

So labels suck but ill say im cool

im nto a jock but cool in my own light

i dont wanna pull labels out to start a fight

or get my ass kicked in the dead of night

but they're there watching us

like monsters at night

mosters judging you like you judge me

Kinda shitty idk rough draft i wanna write a song bout judging people we are all guilty of it. so dont bother hiding it i did it too.

Fall For You

Well why u gotta lead me on
Why did I fall for you
Ur smile shines like lights on broadway
Babe why r u makin me fall for you

Y'all told me we would never be
Then why are you hangin on me
Your the one who said it wasn't to be
Constants walk like country boys
Constant thoughts of you in my mind
Why O why can't I put you behind

Well why you gotta lead me on
Why did I fall for you
ur smile shines like lights On broadway
Babe why are you makin me fall for you

I don't know what lures me in
Oh wait yes I do
Your like an angel
Angelic that's youuuuuu
Takin me to heaven on earth
A place that only exsists with you

Well why you gotta lead me on
Why did I fall for you
Ur smile shines like lights on broadway
Babe why are u making me fall for you

You've helped me up
Even why I'm really down
So why are we so fucked up
We pass without a sound
It's like we never were at all
So why'd you make me fall for you

Would You

So what if i started to die
i tried and tried to be alive
i just couldnt seem to thrive
so what if i did some drugs
then id start to miss your hugs
just gettin high while i die

so what if i trashed my life
putting everything i had under the knife
what if i did some stupid shit
would you just go and quit
please dont quit on me
please try and save me

so what if i never do
i still cant seem to get you
ive tried and tried and tried
so what i just died
so what if i never win
then would all this be a sin
would it all be a sin

so what if i trashed my life
put everything i had under the knife
what if i did some stupid shit
would you just go and quit
please dont quit on me
please try and save me

so what if we end up together
would we be together forever
or would you quit on me
i just wish i could see
see you and me
you and me

please dont quit on me
just wait and see
please dont quit on me
please please save me

Like A Knife

so why does this happen to me
how the hell could this be
they said I'm fine
well how the hell do you know
im on my knees
praying to never wake up again
this game it started offf fun
but now its like im holding the gun

they do not know
whats going on inside my head
they do now know
why i wish that i am dead
or as im laying here in bed
i hope i never awake
life is just so surreal
my heart will never heal

my parents dont share
this pain thatll never go away
my life is despair
a sympathetic tragedy
its just so weird
i never feel safe
even though i know i am

they do not know
whats going on inside my head
they do now know
why i wish that i am dead
or as im laying here in bed
i hope i never awake
life is just so surreal
my heart will never heal

i do not know
what love truly is
its like a lie
it wont ever seem to die
i wish i could run from this pain
run away from this life
this place seems to be stabbing me like a knife.

Confessions - poem

Seconds after the fight broke out my body started to fall
It fell and fell like it was never anything at all
I pass you by at the school in the hall
All I want to do is put a gun to my head
Have my blood on the wall and be dead
Dead like nothing ever mattered to me anyways
The truth is you were my reason for living
And you don’t have the heart for forgiving.
No this isn’t how I really felt
But seriously you make my heart melt.